The BLIND Side

Uh, that would be the side I'm on about now.

How sad is that - when shown the classic eye chart today - I not only failed to read the top line with either eye... but when I was given the opportunity to read it with BOTH eyes, I squinted until I proudly announced it was an A.

 

Uh.... I think that makes me both BLIND and STUPID.  How often do you see anything but an E at the top?  Yikes!

So... without boring you of the details of my vison woes, just know that my eyes are revolting.  They're rejecting my contacts after years of abuse.  (Sure, I've been told that only going 5 hrs a day without contacts will lead to problems, but....)  I'm now banned from wearing contacts.  Indefinitely.  For a few months... at best.  Could take a year or more to heal, and worst case scenario is no more contacts.  Evah!  (For the record, I'm highly emotional at any and ALL medical offices, apparetly.  I promptly told the dr. he was going to make me cry... and that he'd scared me straight and I would be on best behavior from now on.)

Boo hoo!  Going to bed to wallow in my depression.

Oh, and when I replace my 7 year old glasses.... y'all will be the first to see the new specs!

xoxo,

Off Track...

I'm a planner, always have been. I do it professionally. I build plans and then change them, constantly (hey, that's retail!) I'm a planner when it comes to my personal life. We're going to lunch this week? I'd love to know where. You're planning a birthday party.. say, late summer? I'd love to help you start pulling together ideas. Mrs. Everything and I have been planning Summer of 2010 (the first summer where neither of us will be pregnant since the summer of 2006, when Big Sis was the only kid between all of us!) since.... oh, probably summer of 2007.

I love to plan... and I always have a plan..... mr. fix-it and I have had a long-term plan since we moved to TX... I'll spare you the details, but the premis is this: work as hard as we can, in order to afford ourselves flexibility to chase dreams and take risks...

But, no matter how meticulous you are in that plan.... no matter how much effort you've put into it.... no matter how 'fail proof' it is... I'm starting to realize, the truth is this:

In the end, it's just our plan - me and mr. fix-it's. Apparently, someone else has bigger plans. I'm going to (try!!) to trust in those.... continue to work my ass off.... even if it appears that our plans are changing. It's kinda scary (and disappointing and a huge mix of emotions) and I'm not sure what the outcome will be... but as mr. fix-it said... it always works out, even if we have no idea how it possibly can. I have the best husband... :)