I'm a planner, always have been. I do it professionally. I build plans and then change them, constantly (hey, that's retail!) I'm a planner when it comes to my personal life. We're going to lunch this week? I'd love to know where. You're planning a birthday party.. say, late summer? I'd love to help you start pulling together ideas. Mrs. Everything and I have been planning Summer of 2010 (the first summer where neither of us will be pregnant since the summer of 2006, when Big Sis was the only kid between all of us!) since.... oh, probably summer of 2007.
I love to plan... and I always have a plan..... mr. fix-it and I have had a long-term plan since we moved to TX... I'll spare you the details, but the premis is this: work as hard as we can, in order to afford ourselves flexibility to chase dreams and take risks...
But, no matter how meticulous you are in that plan.... no matter how much effort you've put into it.... no matter how 'fail proof' it is... I'm starting to realize, the truth is this:
In the end, it's just our plan - me and mr. fix-it's. Apparently, someone else has bigger plans. I'm going to (try!!) to trust in those.... continue to work my ass off.... even if it appears that our plans are changing. It's kinda scary (and disappointing and a huge mix of emotions) and I'm not sure what the outcome will be... but as mr. fix-it said... it always works out, even if we have no idea how it possibly can. I have the best husband... :)
Thinking about you! It is SO hard when things don't always turn out the way we have planned for them to. I am also a huge planner and I have spent many hours stressing about things that don't jive with my plans. I hope that everything works out for the best for your family!
ReplyDeleteShoot me an email or call me soon, dear friend..... hugs to you. My bible study last night was about that very thing- trusting that He does have a plan, and it may not be our plans, but we have to trust in Him. Let me know what's going on....
ReplyDeleteWe all hate when life doesn't go as planned! Hope all is well with you! HUGS!!!!
ReplyDeleteawwe! you are so sweet. I know what you mean about the plans/path... we want to plan it all out and make it all wonderful, and sometimes, it is better than we could have planned ;)!!!
ReplyDeletefor example, today I was looking at the Florida State website, and telling Mr. Wonderful that they have Ph.D.'s in both meteorology and creative writing, so perfect, we could both be there in a few years doing that... right? but really we love Colorado, and for now we are hanging out in Miami...
ReplyDeleteanyway, things do work out... mr. fix-it and mr. wonderful are good at reminding us :)
I'm so sorry things aren't working how you wanted them to. That's frustrating. I hope and pray that in the end, hindsight will make the purpose clear, and that it will be a joyful thing!
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